Sometimes, I just get so sick and tired of the real world.

There's so many things in my mind right now.

Gotta face all the stress myself.

How I hope I can be just a character in game..

At least I don't have to face the real world.

I love to bind myself to the games that i'm playing.

At least there's no politics or whatever in it.

At least I feel happier.

At least I don't have to think so much.

Whatever i do is wrong.

Whatever I do is incorrect.

Whatever I do is useless.

Whatever I do is shit.

Getting blamed, scolded, yelled and nothing else.

Not bothering the fact that I am stress enough with all the stuffs in my life.

Work is stress enough and when I go back home its even worse.

I am just a simple girl.. I never thought about all this before.

But now, I have to bear with everything. Even how relunctant I am.

I have no choice.

I gotta brace up for my precious girl.

I don't want her to be like me.. Being weak and useless.

I want her to be strong and brave.

To face all the problems in her life.

I wan hubby to be happy.

but I don't know how to anymore.

All I can do is just shut the world out of my life.

All I can do is hide and run away from the issues of this real world.

All I can do is cry and hurt myself.

There's no light in my life. Everything is dark and scary.

I get so sick and tired of it all.

I wanna rest in peace..

But I can't yet. I have to see my girl grow. I have to make sure she ain't a bit like me.

I have to.. Its my responsibility.

And this real world is making me so dead.